I told myself to stay. Stay away and forget it. Not once, not twice but many times. But the urge to make my hand dirty, seems so strong again.
My heart wants to go. My mind wants to stay. Both of them are not on the same page. They belong to me and I belong to them. And yet, both have different direction. While the mind kept thinking, the heart kept beating fast.
The heart had won a few battles. And yet, people kept telling me to watch out! Watch out for my emotion, for it my lead to your downfall. But must all decisions solely based on reasoning and logic?
Based on my heart, I wish to go. And I wish to really move forward and left everything I had for the cause that I champion. Have people told you to go after your life mission?
To learn to let go and really let go everything is two different things. It was and is hard to do.
Nah…Reasoning and logic still rule. For how long, I’m not sure. Just wish, to see some light at the end of the tunnel. Yes, it is a bit dark now. I still cannot see it clearly. I still cannot make my judgement.
I just continue walking, hoping to find some light to guide me along. And I kept asking.
Will I find a Master to grab my hand and show me the way to light?
VERY DEEP, BUT I UNDERSTAND. NEXT TIME JUST BRING ALONG A TORCHLIGHT WHEN YOU GO INTO ANY TUNNEL.